I text her here and there to see If she's doing okay because I genuinely care about her but I don't get a response 99% of the time. When she does respond, its some cold one liner like "Nice" or "good" lol. Sometimes I text her asking if I can talk to her because it used to help speaking to her(she was my emotional crutch) . But again no response. I stopped seeing her in January of this year. She gradually became colder and colder towards me as time went by. When I was a regular, I would get responses from her 24 7 lol. I've texted her at 3 AM before and she responded being all nice and friendly when I was her client. She made it seem like we were friends but I was just a client. I'm still in love with her so I hate to admit this but I try to reach out here and there. I feel like a fucking loser. I went into this hobby because I didn't want a relationship or catch feelings and just wanted easy accessible intimacy but it backfired. I did see a couple of providers this summer and it was great for getting my mind off her but now that I'm out of money, lonely , and stressed with school again, I keep thinking of her. I don't ever want someone to have this level of control over me again. I feel like a beta male. Lately I have been making efforts to reach out to friends and family but there's only so much you can do with covid going around and school being super busy. I'm way too young to be dealing with so much bs. I wish I had a magic pill to make my psychological issues go away...... I'm taking this as a learning lesson that I need to change or this habit will destroy me. I'll be okay. I am a good student and a hard worker. I know I have a bright future ahead of me so I'm focusing on myself now. My plan is to quit this habit for good but defeating an addiction isn't easy. Good news is I havent engaged in this hobby for 2 months so I'm happy about that. I'm working on self control and healthy coping strategies. Glad to hear someone out there can relate to me in some way..
Fell in Love/Lust with an escort. Young sex addict
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Stop texting her, move on. Its over. Please do yourself this favor. I would block her so she can't text you and f**k with your mind. For such a young guy curious why a lady that is so much older than you.
I'm into older women and this hobby allowed to explore that side.Plus she was exactly my type from my young porn fantasies lol. Also, I think I have mommy issues so I probably subconsciously crave an older woman to fulfill some emotional need that wasn't met in my childhood( based on a conversation with therapist). Also, I've been told I'm more mature for my age so I naturally gravitate towards older people in general. I agree I should stop texting her and I will.
As mentioned previously in the thread, almost everyone goes through a phase where they become fixated on a regular.
It happens, and especially if you don't receive this attention elsewhere.
It seems like you were becoming a bit too needy, and her emotional support wasn't giving her a return financially so it just ended.
Can you blame her, people can only be so generous and especially with the hobby nothing out of paid companionship should be expected.
I wouldn't get upset or beat yourself over it, it's a learning opportunity.
A book to consider is the Rational Male. https://www.amazon.ca/Rational-Male-Rollo-Tomassi/dp/1492777862
I also love the company of older women: the sterotypical MILF. While saying it's a "mommy issue" is a good way to categorize the fetish and be done with it.
I don't believe there is much merit to it and it's probably not healthy to entertain that there is something fundamentally wrong with you.
Freud got a lot of things wrong. As Tony Soprano would say "FOR THE LAST TIME I DON'T WANNA FUCK MY MUDDA."
When seeing any women, don't be very needed, its a turn off. Women can be hard to understand sometimes, Avoid escorts you sound like you get easily attached. You need to be calm cool, not overbearing. A girlfriend when your ready will be much better for you. I really like one escort alot, we text back and forth. I don't initiate the texts unless I am booking, if she wants to text me, we will chat otherwise I don't bother reaching out. I like her alot, she tells me she love spending time with me. ( if there was no money I don't think so). But its a great way for them to keep their clients especially if they are regulars
I do get very needy when I get attached to a girl and I hate that about myself so you're right. I wish I was addicted to drugs and alcohol like other kids my age but I'd probably be dead if that were the case lol. At least it would be Cheaper and less shameful
Drugs and alcohol are the worst thing you can do. focus on school or whatever you do, get some help. You are a young pup you have so many years ahead of you. There are so many women out there. Forget this hobby now. Lose her number, block her, forget about her.
I just wanna see if I've fucked her before, lol!
LOL I'm sure everyone here is curious but I can't say who she is for various reasons.
But it's not like they are pretending otherwise. We all know, or should know, that is the game plan for them.
1. Be proud that You identified the problem and you have asked advice / input from the terb community
2. You are 22 years young. Don't fall in love.
3. Seek some medication and therapy/counselling. Be patient, Its tough finding any therapists these days due to long waiting lists. Depression and anxiety can be treated.
4. Stop thinking of her. Think of something else to do that is healthy to occupy your mind and body. Delete her contact, block her number , twitter, social media etc. And most of all dont look at her advertisements/website/photos.
2. You are 22 years young. Don't fall in love.
3. Seek some medication and therapy/counselling. Be patient, Its tough finding any therapists these days due to long waiting lists. Depression and anxiety can be treated.
4. Stop thinking of her. Think of something else to do that is healthy to occupy your mind and body. Delete her contact, block her number , twitter, social media etc. And most of all dont look at her advertisements/website/photos.
you got hustled by a veteran. No shame in being beaten by someone that’s been in the biz as long as you’ve been alive.
When you are feeling down and blue, remember what she did to your when you were at your lowest point: she ghosted you. No discussion, no action: she abandoned you when you needed her.
Thats the mark of a cowardly woman.
Its gonna sting for a while, the best thing to do has already been mentioned here: stand up straight, clean up your life and become a man who is interesting and stable with purpose. That’s your end goal, get after it.
Best of luck.
Buy a motorcycle. Go on a long trip. Thank me later.
As a man you are born with the burden of performance. I recommend you read or listen to the following book
The Rational Male by Rolo Tomassi. You can buy it from Amazon or listen to it via Audible.
Btw when I was 22 years old I had approach anxiety. In addition I was not having any luck with the girls. I thought there was something wrong with me. I too would go home and drink. I was a borderline alcoholic and I had a gambling (Horse racing) problem.
Today I am 39 years old have a great career, try to keep physically fit and constantly pursue excellence. Oh yeah before I forget most of the ladies I have "sexual relations" with are between 20-24 years old!
