This is exactly why i started to hobby as well. I got with a beautiful girl i was 35. We quickly had 2 kids. The second kid had a disease at 2 months. I spent a whole week sleeping on the floor of his hospital room. There was no way i would leave without him. After 7 days on life support he recovered. The doctor wrote a medical abstract about it. Now he's an elite 15 years old athlete.
but then my girlfriend suddenly had zero libido. absolutely no more interest in sex... after a few years i told her we would split.
then i had a business trip to Vancouver. I decided to contact an escort. My first time. It turned out amazing. But fucking silly me i had imessage turned on. So my girl read all messages i had with that escort, and me telling her how wonderful she was, on my ipad i had left at home
when i came back she didn't came to pick me up at the airport. I felt something was really wrong
So yeah we split and i started to see many escorts ever since simply because i do not want another girlfriend.