I am kind of in shock after reading this post. I saw amberjade once and was convinced you were a junkie. She was a nice person, doing everything to accomodate me, and please me. The session involved me using her aggressively (though not abusively).
I judged her, and treated you rather impersonally. The session ended with me not even tipping her, even after her great efforts. I felt that she would use the money on drugs, and didn't want to waste my money. I felt very disgusted after the session, partly with myself for having sex with someone who I thought was a dirty druggie. Partly for the way I treated her. And also because I felt bad for her. It was the worst session ever, in that regard.
I wrote on terb about my experience, about how she must be on drugs, and how her boyfriend was her pimp, in control of her. I was 100% convinced, and other posts seemed to back up my theory.
I feel very sad and ashamed now, and wonder how many other times I have misjudged people and treated them unfairly. People who are in desperate situations.
I wish amberjade the very best. I know little about the disease, but I know it will be a difficult time ahead for her. If I had know this, I would have treated her much more kindly....