what the hell is wrong with me?

In a way, yes. But in practical terms, no. To me, full sex is far more intimate than a simple rub and tug. There's no illusion with an MPA that you're getting a GFE, it's all about physical release. Whereas with full sex, any coldness that it's purely about the release would be off-putting to me. I'd have no interest in it. I'd need the illusion of, if at the very least, a connection.

To me, one is about busting that nut only and the other about engaging in the full experience. This is not a moral judgement (which would raise the double standard issue) but rather about the essence of the experience. For example, MPAs don't pretend to orgasm like an SP might (real or otherwise) and yet that would be critical for me to enjoy the full sex experience.

My guess is you haven't been with Mpa's lately. They connect and orgasm as well as sps. PM me.
 
It may sound harsh but it sounds like she just wants to get pounded occasionally. And you're there to do it when she wants it.


Is it possible that she has a boyfriend? And/or you're her 'booty-call'? Again, not trying to sound harsh but that seems like a possibility.

That's not harsh at all.
It's quite possible what you suggest. Our relationship has always been in the fuck-buddy category, so I don't really care what her motivations are.
Maybe I should just not over think it and take advantage of it when she wants it.