I have been lurking out there for a year or two and finally decided to register and post. This is my first post and a somewhat delicate subject, so please be gentle.
First, I want to thank all the TERBites out there for their information and insight. There are some real characters out there and I find the reading to be quite clever at times as well as entertaining and informative. Second, I amazed at how rich and diverse the SP scene is in Toronto. And I am further amazed at how some of you guys seem to be so regular participants. It certainly seems like in TERB land sometimes there are “professionals” on both sides of the SP equation.
Now my handle is AmatuerHobbyist because I consider myself very much an amateur at this game. I make that self assessment based on several factors. The first of these is just plain numbers. I have neither the time nor the money to pursue this seriously. (I do not know if my better half keeps me busy and broke to prevent me from hobbying but it certainly seems to work out that way.) And so I have averaged about 1.5 SP experience a year over the last decade. It seems like some TERBites average that a week.
The second factor is performance. As I read the TERB reviews I sometimes think I must be the only one who is not a super stud. Even discounting the BS that some guys no doubt put out, there seems to be a great deal of (mutually?) satisfying coupling going on in TERB land. As for me, I know that on at least two occasions in my life I was able to bring the SP to a climax (orally – the only way to fly). But more often than not the SP’s are faking whatever reaction I am getting. (As I have not had any problems in this regard in my personal life, I chalk up my lack of SP orgasmic success to just the nature of the transaction). But an SP can fake it. A man cannot.
Recently I have taken advantage of a six week long stint as a bachelor (the wife was visiting family) to schedule a couple of appointments. And in both of my last two encounters (one several weeks ago in Prague and the other last week in Toronto) I had difficulty “keeping it up” so to speak (despite 100 mgs of the little blue wonder pill in my system). I attribute this to being nervous, intimidated, afraid and guilty.
I do not do this often so even after all the years I still feel nervous about an encounter somewhat in the way I was my first time. I guess I felt a little intimidated because I had an absolutely beautiful young girl laying naked in front of me. Like most guys I want beautiful, but beautiful can be intimidating. The fear comes from feeling that I will pop my cookies way too soon and, in essence, blow my money and my limited opportunity to hobby. And guilty - well I am not guilty cheating on the misses (if she took better care of me I probably would not be out hobbying) but guilty nonetheless in a way that is difficult to explain. And so these feelings feed performance anxiety which does not feed blood flow to the right place.
Now in both these cases the act was eventually consummated. In both cases I did enjoy my time with the lady. As a matter of fact I liked each of these ladies very much for their mind as well as body. And in neither case would I lay any blame for my failures on the SP. So I have no complaints about the service. But it was just not the great sex I was fantasizing about. So I am frustrated. At home I can (and often do) wear out my mid-30’s, sexual-peak-years wife despite being 13 years her senior. So why cannot I muster the same performance in an SP encounter? Am I the only one with this problem?
Alright this post was cathartic for me. I don’t need to have my butt flamed to death (although I am sure some burning is inevitable). I am looking to see if anybody else has experienced difficulties such as this. If nothing else, I got this off my chest.
First, I want to thank all the TERBites out there for their information and insight. There are some real characters out there and I find the reading to be quite clever at times as well as entertaining and informative. Second, I amazed at how rich and diverse the SP scene is in Toronto. And I am further amazed at how some of you guys seem to be so regular participants. It certainly seems like in TERB land sometimes there are “professionals” on both sides of the SP equation.
Now my handle is AmatuerHobbyist because I consider myself very much an amateur at this game. I make that self assessment based on several factors. The first of these is just plain numbers. I have neither the time nor the money to pursue this seriously. (I do not know if my better half keeps me busy and broke to prevent me from hobbying but it certainly seems to work out that way.) And so I have averaged about 1.5 SP experience a year over the last decade. It seems like some TERBites average that a week.
The second factor is performance. As I read the TERB reviews I sometimes think I must be the only one who is not a super stud. Even discounting the BS that some guys no doubt put out, there seems to be a great deal of (mutually?) satisfying coupling going on in TERB land. As for me, I know that on at least two occasions in my life I was able to bring the SP to a climax (orally – the only way to fly). But more often than not the SP’s are faking whatever reaction I am getting. (As I have not had any problems in this regard in my personal life, I chalk up my lack of SP orgasmic success to just the nature of the transaction). But an SP can fake it. A man cannot.
Recently I have taken advantage of a six week long stint as a bachelor (the wife was visiting family) to schedule a couple of appointments. And in both of my last two encounters (one several weeks ago in Prague and the other last week in Toronto) I had difficulty “keeping it up” so to speak (despite 100 mgs of the little blue wonder pill in my system). I attribute this to being nervous, intimidated, afraid and guilty.
I do not do this often so even after all the years I still feel nervous about an encounter somewhat in the way I was my first time. I guess I felt a little intimidated because I had an absolutely beautiful young girl laying naked in front of me. Like most guys I want beautiful, but beautiful can be intimidating. The fear comes from feeling that I will pop my cookies way too soon and, in essence, blow my money and my limited opportunity to hobby. And guilty - well I am not guilty cheating on the misses (if she took better care of me I probably would not be out hobbying) but guilty nonetheless in a way that is difficult to explain. And so these feelings feed performance anxiety which does not feed blood flow to the right place.
Now in both these cases the act was eventually consummated. In both cases I did enjoy my time with the lady. As a matter of fact I liked each of these ladies very much for their mind as well as body. And in neither case would I lay any blame for my failures on the SP. So I have no complaints about the service. But it was just not the great sex I was fantasizing about. So I am frustrated. At home I can (and often do) wear out my mid-30’s, sexual-peak-years wife despite being 13 years her senior. So why cannot I muster the same performance in an SP encounter? Am I the only one with this problem?
Alright this post was cathartic for me. I don’t need to have my butt flamed to death (although I am sure some burning is inevitable). I am looking to see if anybody else has experienced difficulties such as this. If nothing else, I got this off my chest.
