the banality of existence ...
I may be reiterating here, but I'm tired and just found this thread.
I know that many of us are trying to empathise or give ray a wake up call that life is not so bad compared to "insert tragic life story", but the fact is that it likely doesn't reach ray on any real level during the "down cycle", because in his mind no one could truly understand. Most likely he feels that no one else could possibly have felt as bad as he does, even though he is wrong. The overwhelming sense of hopelessness and despair likely incapacitates him from acting on some of the advice given to him. It's weird how we forget the feeling of torment and complete helplessness. Although most people in this thread did not take this attitude, there is nothing worse and more useless, in most cases, than a holier than thou pick yourself up and get on with life attitude ...
It's so easy in retrospect to see how one can pull themselves out of these depressed states, whether triggered by outside influences, chemical imbalances or a combination of both.
The fact is that what may seem trivial or "less tragic" in relation to our own or other "tragedies", is in fact completely overwhelming and all encompassing to the individual.
I hope you can somehow find that glimmer of hope ray to pull yourself out of this or let someone help. You only have one life and no matter how fucked up you feel now it is likely a temporary extreme which can be relieved through professional help and/ or medication. Unfortunately death is final.
It seems that there is still a stigma attached to "anti depressant" drugs which should be vanquished in this day and age. There is nothing wrong with a little help or stabilising your chemical balance, which is in many cases beyond control of thought. Rational and depression are just not in the same equation. As mentioned before "street drugs" are not the solution and only compound the problem, if not , in many cases are the primary cause. Self medication is rarely, if ever, a good thing, but a good indicator that help is needed to address underlying problems.
PS I'm no psychiatrist so don't take my words as having any real deep meaning. Just some rambling thoughts from my tired feeble mind based on experience.
PSS Ignore daddio; I do.
