I've come back to this thread out of curiosity and I'm amazed that it's still getting some responses, even though I sort of ended it a while ago. To clarify some things, my original post might have been a bit over dramatic and made me sound more sad than I am, but it probably was my somber mood that day. I don't regret posting this, it's given me some outsider opinions.
I've had the chance to date girls and sleep with them in the past, but I was either not attracted to them or I liked them but got butterflies in the stomach and I tend to freeze up. There were nights I would walk home hitting myself in the head thinking why didn't I just say that.
I wouldn't say I'm shy, but introverted and quiet by nature. And I'm not like this in other parts of my life, just with approaching women I really, really like.
I got a private message from a member here and he's right in saying that sleeping with a SP (even though I'm somewhat frustrated) is the easy way out and isn't going to solve the bigger problem. I need to get laid the hard way. That's by getting out of my shell, shedding the fear of rejection and actually connecting with someone.
This thread and some of the responses made me think. I started going out with a friend who I finished school with. He's known for bedding a new girl ever week and I've asked him to teach me the ropes. We went out last night and he helped me strike up some conversations. Given some of them were awkward at first and I wasn't vibing off some of the girls and vice versa, but heck I had fun and it helped me break out of my shell a bit.
I ended up exchanging numbers with an attractive blonde. Assistant, likes doing ballet on her spare time and she's a foody. We went out the next day for burgers for lunch. I'm not sure if it's going to led to anything long term or serious. I'm just not totally into her, but it was fun and I'm just going with the flow and opening myself up more.