It’s been a little over two months since I last booked a provider. It’s a pretty good milestone to say the least; I saved a decent amount of money as a result. I also saw a therapist as well. They helped me unpack a lot of things and some of the things they were saying were aligned with what some of you guys were telling me for years.
The objective for me was to develop personal relationships with women because most of my sexual experiences with women were professional. I was seriously questioning my worth as a man towards women because the only way a woman would give me any kind of companionship was when I had to pay her for it.
I’ve been heavily penetrating through the dating market like I have never did before; I would go every weekend and meet dozens upon dozens of women on the street, bar and clubs and faced countless rejections but I kept pushing. Since the two months that I stopped booking providers, I only ended up on two instant dates (it’s when you take a lady out somewhere on the day or night you just met her). None of those instances lead to sex though.
My level of perseverance in romantically pursuing has gotten higher but I have been craving for physical intimacy again.
The objective for me was to develop personal relationships with women because most of my sexual experiences with women were professional. I was seriously questioning my worth as a man towards women because the only way a woman would give me any kind of companionship was when I had to pay her for it.
I’ve been heavily penetrating through the dating market like I have never did before; I would go every weekend and meet dozens upon dozens of women on the street, bar and clubs and faced countless rejections but I kept pushing. Since the two months that I stopped booking providers, I only ended up on two instant dates (it’s when you take a lady out somewhere on the day or night you just met her). None of those instances lead to sex though.
My level of perseverance in romantically pursuing has gotten higher but I have been craving for physical intimacy again.