Hey everyone
I had a bit of feels tonight and I thought I need to share this. I of course am by myself,
Aways by myself probably because of my service provider entrepreneurial activities lol.
I have been at this for about a year and a half now....and I have some clients that I saw from the very beginning
Until now. I never really sat down and thought about how attached you can get. Tonight it hit me. Without going into any descriptive details that jeopardize the discreet needs of my client I shall state a bit of it.
My client has been seeing me from the beginning... he is a tad younger and yes he was a Virgin. Please don't judge me.It was my only v card and will be. It was special but I can't help but feel like he could have had so much better lol.
He is of age by a bit so when I say young. I mean very legal! I've seen him sporadically due to his education needs and my choice for career. Well I always chuckled at how he is in love with me, it made me feel special. I was special to him and I knew he was special to me..... but... I wouldn't realize how special till tonight. He came to see me and of course we chatted and lucky for me he loves to cuddle.... and then of course we did other things... at the end of it all he decides to tell me he won't be seeing me for awhile.... although he Said 3 months... I knew it will be forever. This was it. I filled my purpose in this young man's life. He has finally finished school and now he needs to find that career. I know he will do well. I understand he needs to break the bond off. He is a man now, he has conquered the first steps in the beginning of his amazing life. I wasn't just his enter into adulthood friend. I was an ear for him to talk to, to explore and discuss the ways of his social life and instability and craziness of being his age. The unsureness, the excitement and the beginning for him is all paved out. Including losing his virginity.
I cried after he left. I didn't think I would. I didn't think perhaps it was me who so needed him. He lit up my old and weird life and made everything feel like a blessing. I will miss him dearly.... for it I who feels like I lost some sort of virginity with him. He was my first vCard as well.
Xo
I had a bit of feels tonight and I thought I need to share this. I of course am by myself,
Aways by myself probably because of my service provider entrepreneurial activities lol.
I have been at this for about a year and a half now....and I have some clients that I saw from the very beginning
Until now. I never really sat down and thought about how attached you can get. Tonight it hit me. Without going into any descriptive details that jeopardize the discreet needs of my client I shall state a bit of it.
My client has been seeing me from the beginning... he is a tad younger and yes he was a Virgin. Please don't judge me.It was my only v card and will be. It was special but I can't help but feel like he could have had so much better lol.
He is of age by a bit so when I say young. I mean very legal! I've seen him sporadically due to his education needs and my choice for career. Well I always chuckled at how he is in love with me, it made me feel special. I was special to him and I knew he was special to me..... but... I wouldn't realize how special till tonight. He came to see me and of course we chatted and lucky for me he loves to cuddle.... and then of course we did other things... at the end of it all he decides to tell me he won't be seeing me for awhile.... although he Said 3 months... I knew it will be forever. This was it. I filled my purpose in this young man's life. He has finally finished school and now he needs to find that career. I know he will do well. I understand he needs to break the bond off. He is a man now, he has conquered the first steps in the beginning of his amazing life. I wasn't just his enter into adulthood friend. I was an ear for him to talk to, to explore and discuss the ways of his social life and instability and craziness of being his age. The unsureness, the excitement and the beginning for him is all paved out. Including losing his virginity.
I cried after he left. I didn't think I would. I didn't think perhaps it was me who so needed him. He lit up my old and weird life and made everything feel like a blessing. I will miss him dearly.... for it I who feels like I lost some sort of virginity with him. He was my first vCard as well.
Xo