you sound so unpleasant and like YOU have insecurities and only hang around equally insecure girls.Havent you heard the saying "girls like assholes"?
Im not bullshitting. Ive known more than a dozen girls before they were escorts and throughout their time as escorts actually. Ive banged a lot of girls and Some of these girls i even recommended they should try escorting because they were hot and loved sex and needed money. They certainly wouldn't tell their girlfriends about it. They told me everything since they could trust me. Whats hard to believe about it? A girl hooks up with a good looking guy and they bang occasionally for a year or so. The guy suggests she try escorting. She does. She comes to him to talk about it since hes the only one that knows...
After a few months, They all said the exact same thing about clients. Every one of them. Sounds like you are very insecure. Work on that.
"Girls like assholes"? Yes, keyword being GIRLS. Women enjoy the company of real MEN. Which unfortunately you don't sound like so no wonder a grown woman wouldn't spend time with you. I'd be repulsed in your company.