I watched Don Jon yesterday and it made me think again on how porn is so prevalent in society now.
When I was a teenager in the 80's, I used to stay up late and look at the scrambled channels in hopes of seeing a tit or a nipple, and my porn consumption was going to the corner store once every few months to pick up a Hustler magazine (which was heavily censored, black bars everywhere and no penetration was allowed to be shown) or Mayfair (large breasted British women in black stockings), embarrassingly paying for the magazine to the old man at the store and carrying it away in a paper bag. In short, porn wasn't a big part of my life and I recall that I had a lot of hobbies and friends.
Nowadays, teenagers can see the most graphic full high def videos of any sexual act they can think of and acts they would never even think of all in seconds with a click of the mouse. Any google/youtube search can yield the actual results of porn and desensitization. Like the character in Don Jon, I have been a regular (daily?) consumer of porn since I got high speed internet, over 10 years now. I've tried quitting and have gone as much as 2 weeks with no porn but I always go back.
Just now I was trying to clean up the approx 1 TB of porn on my hard drive and came across some clips of Jenna Pressley who was one of my favorites. I wondered what had happened to her and I found out she quit porn last year and found Jesus. Now I'm non-religious so I don't identify with the religion part, but I watched the clip and it made me sad that she was so unhappy and suicidal, but also happy that she has found happiness.
I've also realized that in my 40's now and having been single for almost a year now, I don't have many hobbies anymore or friends, I spend a lot of my free time watching porn. Is anyone else here experiencing a similar lifestyle now? I'm in a rut and am having a hard time getting out of it.
When I was a teenager in the 80's, I used to stay up late and look at the scrambled channels in hopes of seeing a tit or a nipple, and my porn consumption was going to the corner store once every few months to pick up a Hustler magazine (which was heavily censored, black bars everywhere and no penetration was allowed to be shown) or Mayfair (large breasted British women in black stockings), embarrassingly paying for the magazine to the old man at the store and carrying it away in a paper bag. In short, porn wasn't a big part of my life and I recall that I had a lot of hobbies and friends.
Nowadays, teenagers can see the most graphic full high def videos of any sexual act they can think of and acts they would never even think of all in seconds with a click of the mouse. Any google/youtube search can yield the actual results of porn and desensitization. Like the character in Don Jon, I have been a regular (daily?) consumer of porn since I got high speed internet, over 10 years now. I've tried quitting and have gone as much as 2 weeks with no porn but I always go back.
Just now I was trying to clean up the approx 1 TB of porn on my hard drive and came across some clips of Jenna Pressley who was one of my favorites. I wondered what had happened to her and I found out she quit porn last year and found Jesus. Now I'm non-religious so I don't identify with the religion part, but I watched the clip and it made me sad that she was so unhappy and suicidal, but also happy that she has found happiness.
I've also realized that in my 40's now and having been single for almost a year now, I don't have many hobbies anymore or friends, I spend a lot of my free time watching porn. Is anyone else here experiencing a similar lifestyle now? I'm in a rut and am having a hard time getting out of it.
