You're missing out!Thanks my friend for the book recommendation..I will look into it. On the hind sight, if your wife did not find out about you seeing escort, would you have stayed in marriage? How did your wife find out that you seeing escort?
I never repeat seeing the same escort more than once. Too much risk for me to get attached to the fantasy. So far works well for me.
I am the opposite. Getting to know someone and developing some trust with boundaries in place is a total turn-on for me. The young woman I am seeing now I have probably seen a dozen times or so and every session has been wilder and wilder. I think the difference between our two situations ( yours and mine ) is in knowing ourselves, and, having realistic expectations of the woman we are seeing.
I know from a couple of decades of experience that some of the hottest mindblowing sex sessions I have ever had I would have missed out on if I walked in your shoes.
Like you said, " so far, works well for me "