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OnTheWayOut
A thread on Cerb about quitting the hobby got me thinking and I posted the following there. It's kind of along the lines of the drivel I posted a few years back that some of you seemed to like so I will paste here for your reading enjoyment and consideration:
For some reason while I was mowing the lawn today this topic came to mind. I've been trying to cut back, slow down, wind down as I get older and lil slurp grows more finicky.
I realized it is the thrill of a new relationship that makes me hobby. Yes, I like women, sexy women, many different women. I sometimes enjoy the thrill of the hunt, such as seeing what gems i may find at an MP or SC. Broke myself of that for the most part.
So why do I have regulars that I remain loyal to? If it's the thrill of new relationships this isn't logical, I said to myself. Then I realized it never gets to "real relationship" stage. I see them, we have great sex and we may even go to dinner, or talk about their relationship or take them shopping. I do all kinds of relationship things with some of my regs. But it's still not a normal relationship where we settle in and see each other every day. Seeing them now and then (and having to sneak around to do it usually) feeds the "rush" just enough I guess.
I'm chasing a relationship I can never have so the thirst is never quenched quite all the way. So it's still new in many ways even though we are quite familiar with each other. And I see in the occasional new SP to keep the rush fresh. Old regs retire or move away, new ones come along to take their place. But I've got 2 that have been driving my passions for 4 or 5 years.
The whole thing that made me think of this is for some reason I can't get one of my regs out of my head this long weekend. I want her more than ever and the anticipation is driving me wild. Even with Maggie returning and seeing her (it was like the first time all over again and wonderful) I lust after my reg like never before. And I know I can't see her until the long weekend is over so it's making me like a teenager with anticipation. I love this feeling and am really getting off on it.
No, we're not in love although we care deeply about each other. And there is another out there that makes me feel in a similar fashion, it's just this sexy SP's turn.
But something is making me need her in a way similar to that anticipation you get when you are seeing a top level SP for the first time. Or when you were a teenager and that gorgeous babe finalty agrees to go out with you, the one you heard puts out. The heart is pounding, junior goes wild when you think about her and you just can't wait to see her. I find it amazing I can feel that way about someone I have seen more times than I could count over 4 or 5 years.
Maybe JT's arrival later this week kicked it off, I don't know. I am psyched to see her again too. Quit? The rush is still there and if anything getting worse .....
For some reason while I was mowing the lawn today this topic came to mind. I've been trying to cut back, slow down, wind down as I get older and lil slurp grows more finicky.
I realized it is the thrill of a new relationship that makes me hobby. Yes, I like women, sexy women, many different women. I sometimes enjoy the thrill of the hunt, such as seeing what gems i may find at an MP or SC. Broke myself of that for the most part.
So why do I have regulars that I remain loyal to? If it's the thrill of new relationships this isn't logical, I said to myself. Then I realized it never gets to "real relationship" stage. I see them, we have great sex and we may even go to dinner, or talk about their relationship or take them shopping. I do all kinds of relationship things with some of my regs. But it's still not a normal relationship where we settle in and see each other every day. Seeing them now and then (and having to sneak around to do it usually) feeds the "rush" just enough I guess.
I'm chasing a relationship I can never have so the thirst is never quenched quite all the way. So it's still new in many ways even though we are quite familiar with each other. And I see in the occasional new SP to keep the rush fresh. Old regs retire or move away, new ones come along to take their place. But I've got 2 that have been driving my passions for 4 or 5 years.
The whole thing that made me think of this is for some reason I can't get one of my regs out of my head this long weekend. I want her more than ever and the anticipation is driving me wild. Even with Maggie returning and seeing her (it was like the first time all over again and wonderful) I lust after my reg like never before. And I know I can't see her until the long weekend is over so it's making me like a teenager with anticipation. I love this feeling and am really getting off on it.
No, we're not in love although we care deeply about each other. And there is another out there that makes me feel in a similar fashion, it's just this sexy SP's turn.
But something is making me need her in a way similar to that anticipation you get when you are seeing a top level SP for the first time. Or when you were a teenager and that gorgeous babe finalty agrees to go out with you, the one you heard puts out. The heart is pounding, junior goes wild when you think about her and you just can't wait to see her. I find it amazing I can feel that way about someone I have seen more times than I could count over 4 or 5 years.
Maybe JT's arrival later this week kicked it off, I don't know. I am psyched to see her again too. Quit? The rush is still there and if anything getting worse .....