And here I thought everyone had it all figured out and had no issues. You've again put my mind at ease and that is appreciative. This is the sort of discussion I suppose I was looking for, but seems to be non-existent. I know I bugged a couple of posters privately when just inquiring about an SP, but I don't like to intrude on people. Although I will say Rebelinbed was awesome with his response to me.
Missed out opportunity is what drives me nuts, like last night, lol. It's not the financial aspect. Granted the donation was still a fair amount to me (I'm not well to do JUST yet, lol).
As long as the guaranteed erection works I should be at least better off, lol.
Well I'm not 500lbs (anymore at least, lol). I was once closing in on 800lbs. I wasn't quite what you see on television as I could still walk and function, but it was getting labourious. I now hover in the 250-280 range (6'3 and built like an offensive lineman or linebacker), but some cosmetic surgery would likely take a good 30-40lbs off that. My hold up is partially a body dysmorphia issue. When you drop to a third of your size there is a lot of stretched out skin. I liken it to being like a deflated balloon. I digress on myself, lol. I do like to believe I show up clean. My routine is to shower, put on some coconut oil, get dressed, and head out. I'm courteous to a bloody fault. I guess though this is one of the only times I've glad to be slightly above average in the endowment given what I've read, lol.
I sincerely appreciate your candor. It is helpful as I said to know that even seasoned vets have the same sort of issues. In my head a lot of my issues are more just to not have to traumatize the provider. I literally said that to the one last night when she asked about my getting undressed, lol. I think that was the first thing that made her raise an eyebrow. I think she probably feels I just didn't like what I saw, which wasn't true. I am one of the least shallow people I know (not to say others are shallow here). Some extra fluff in the abdomen isn't going to bother me.
Sorry, sometimes I never know where to draw the line. I'm just a friendly, personable individual.