Is it just me or this happen to everyone? Before you meeting the lady, you feel all excited like a fat kid on toonies Tuesday, but once you finish, you have this feeling, this emptiness, this loneliness, almost depression feeling. Is like everything that happened were fake, is just an illusion. Everything the lady said or do is because you were the paying customer, and you start questioning about everything in real life. Did your coworker really meant what s/he said? Or s/he just saying that because s/he works with you. Did your friends really meant what they said? Or they said it because that's what they think I wanted to hear?
Maybe I am over thinking it, but I can't stop feeling this way and it is getting worst and worst. Is up to a point that I start to think this girl, who is a friend but not girlfriend yet, that I am kinda seeing would see me because of money or free food, but not because she likes me.
Is it just me or this happened to everyone?
I've felt this way a couple times. I think first and foremost you need to ask yourself why you are hobbying in the first place. What's the specificality behind it? What's the missing puzzle piece that needs to filled into your life?
When I was a teenager I was really big into pornography, I have explored into this pornographic cyber rabbit hole on the internet and discovered what I was sexually into, and figured out the kinds of females I thought were visually appealing to me. I have discovered that i was into women with breast implants, fake long nails, heavy make-up, lip fillers, botox work on their face, brazilian butt lifts (or butt implants) basically any typical pornstar that you see on the top 10 most viewed pornstar on brazzers. Those were the kinds of women that I was into.
So whenever I approach women, I take a good look at her to see if she had her boobs done, Check to see if she has lip fillers and check to see if she gets her nails done. I appoach them and got rejected so many times; Maybe they didn't like me, Maybe she was telling the truth when she said that she had a boyfriend. I don't know but It frusterated me and the repeated rejections was psychologically damaging to me.
So I thought maybe I can meet these kinds of women where it doesn't matter if she likes me or if she is interested in me long as I like her? I thought: Hobbying
When to a MP, had a session with a really hot blonde chick that had her boobs done, work done on her face, had lip fillers and I felt like I was living my teenage dream. I got to spend time which a chick that looks like a pornstar and I don't have to worry about her liking me I was so happy.
So basically what I am saying is I think you need to book sessions with SW's that can REALLY scratch your itch. Figure out the type of chicks you like and stick to those one's only so you don't feel empty. I booked an SP once where she had natural tits and her nails weren't even done. I felt emotionless after the session. I wasn't fullfilled. Chicks with the pornstar look fulfill me so I never have to feel empty again.