There's no point in blasting anyone...
Kiarra hit the nail on the head. My problem was a) the lying (such as I thought it at the time, & b) the dangers of unprotected sex (yes, my fault) with someone who could have been having sex with others without telling me. The truth of whether she was an MP or not did not in itself change/dilute my feelings for her, but the other stuff caused me some anxious moments...I don't engage in bbfs with any SP. The other issue is, since people seem to keep missing it, I HAVEN'T BEEN WITH AN SP SINCE WE STARTED SEEING EACH OTHER & DON'T INTEND TO. Yes, I know she has a past, as have I, including experiences with this hobby, but I won't be seeing any SP while I'm with her. No hard feelings, sweetdiane, I have respected your posts that I've read. I just think you were missing some bits of info (much as I was when I started freaking out yesterday). And BTW, I knew (and posted) that my explanation was lame, but can't give all the details, it involves friends of both hers & mine.
Bobzilla