I'm terrible when it comes to girls. I've had rotten luck with them over the past several years, and have had my heart torn out repeatedly. I thought that seeing an SP (have done so twice) would make me take women a little less serious, and make me not care too much, and make like NSA stuff. Not working as I had planned. I have seen two in Montreal. The first one, while amazingly gorgeous, I could tell we probably wouldn't get along well, say in theory she would date me, but still, had a great time. Here's what happened, paid for 1.5 hours, we spoke for about an hour, as I'm incredibly nervous about this, and like to be put at ease, makes for far less nervousness on my part. Anyways, she walks into the bedroom, takes of her clothes (it was a suite hotel room), and we got down to it. Despite my young age, the process is quite prolonged for me, so session one was about 30 minutes, after 15 of over stuff. Her review says she doesn't a second session. We cuddled after the first, and i was thinking she was going to take off, but no. She asked if I wanted to do it again, and I said sure. This one went for quite a while, and realized I wasn't going to finish, and let her know that, she still wanted to continue. Eventually she got tired, and then said she was going to get sushi. I didn't think much of it, then asked me if I like sushi, and I told her I don't eat seafood, she paused for a minute, and said they have terriyaki too. I realized she was asking me to go with her. So I said sure. Since I was atourist, I didn't have a car, so she drives me to the sushi place, we have dinner for about2 hours, she even introduced me to the guy who makes the sushi, though she said I was her out of town cousin. Had a great conversation with her at the restaurant. Finish eating (I of course paid), she drives me back to the hotel, and gives me the french kisses on the cheek goodbye kiss.
SO my plan to have no possible liking of her was ruined, as I liked her and was miserable when I had to leave the next morning. She has been in the business for a while, so I realize now that I am nothing to her, though we occasionally email. But that experience sounds a little out of the ordinary. Remember, I paid for 1.5 hours, and spent probably 5-6 hours with her. I even tried to tip her and she absolutely refused, and said that if I want, I can use that money on the dinner.
Anyways, about a month later, I go back to Montreal, and see another one, as this one wasn't available because she's going on a trip. I pay for two hours. I booked about 3 weeks in advance, and had been emailing her back and forth probably every other day. Meet her, and she looks a lot like a girl I used to date. This one is more of a GFE, and that was probably a bad idea for me. We kissed for a good 35-40 minutes, but I spoke too long with her, and after about 4 hours she had to go, no actual deed, though there was the best bj I have ever had in my entire life (ie ex girlfriends would quite doing that to me because it took me forever, with her, 10 minutes, tops, my absolute record). No dinner, but we were making out all the way to the door when she was leaving. Told me she would email me pics of her before she had her transformation in appearance (before she cut her hair short and colored it), told me her real name, etc. Because it was GFE, lots of kissing, of course now I like her.
As you can see, my plan isn't working at all. I even think that if I had an incall, with virtually no talking, I still think that wouldn't help me. I want to turn into stone so if I ever have to deal with a girl like the one's I've dated in the past, I won't give a flying f about it, rather than going into months long depressions with a serious decline in my ego/self confidence.
Any suggestions? I hope this is the proper forum for this post, I just dont' think it would fit in the actual SP categories. But are some people hopeless? It's not like I'm needy or anything, I love my space, I usually don't like sleeping in the same bed as a girl, I hate speaking on the phone, but I EASILY like girls. Not talking about liking the sex, I'm talking about liking them based upon the conversations plus the sex. I'm not as pathetic as this friend of mine who went on a couple dates with a girl, never even kissed her, and was devestated when she said she didn't want to see him anymore. I'm not that bad, but I think once sex is involved, I'm ruined.
SO my plan to have no possible liking of her was ruined, as I liked her and was miserable when I had to leave the next morning. She has been in the business for a while, so I realize now that I am nothing to her, though we occasionally email. But that experience sounds a little out of the ordinary. Remember, I paid for 1.5 hours, and spent probably 5-6 hours with her. I even tried to tip her and she absolutely refused, and said that if I want, I can use that money on the dinner.
Anyways, about a month later, I go back to Montreal, and see another one, as this one wasn't available because she's going on a trip. I pay for two hours. I booked about 3 weeks in advance, and had been emailing her back and forth probably every other day. Meet her, and she looks a lot like a girl I used to date. This one is more of a GFE, and that was probably a bad idea for me. We kissed for a good 35-40 minutes, but I spoke too long with her, and after about 4 hours she had to go, no actual deed, though there was the best bj I have ever had in my entire life (ie ex girlfriends would quite doing that to me because it took me forever, with her, 10 minutes, tops, my absolute record). No dinner, but we were making out all the way to the door when she was leaving. Told me she would email me pics of her before she had her transformation in appearance (before she cut her hair short and colored it), told me her real name, etc. Because it was GFE, lots of kissing, of course now I like her.
As you can see, my plan isn't working at all. I even think that if I had an incall, with virtually no talking, I still think that wouldn't help me. I want to turn into stone so if I ever have to deal with a girl like the one's I've dated in the past, I won't give a flying f about it, rather than going into months long depressions with a serious decline in my ego/self confidence.
Any suggestions? I hope this is the proper forum for this post, I just dont' think it would fit in the actual SP categories. But are some people hopeless? It's not like I'm needy or anything, I love my space, I usually don't like sleeping in the same bed as a girl, I hate speaking on the phone, but I EASILY like girls. Not talking about liking the sex, I'm talking about liking them based upon the conversations plus the sex. I'm not as pathetic as this friend of mine who went on a couple dates with a girl, never even kissed her, and was devestated when she said she didn't want to see him anymore. I'm not that bad, but I think once sex is involved, I'm ruined.
