Letter from a "pervert."

[fuji]

The OP has not been active on terb since posting his letter saying that he was contemplating suicide.

Does anyone know him?

 

[Fallsguy]

fallsguy still standing

Hello fellow Terbites.
OK, here's where I'm at. Let me take this opportunity (my last) to share a bit of "personal" info.
I'm a somewhat shy person, and an academic, a bit of an egghead I guess you could call me. I'm not very good with small talk and have not been very good at meeting new people, especially women, who tend not to be very interested in me, although I'm not bad looking, not overweight. I've kept myself in pretty good shape, and despite being in my late fifties, I still have most of my hair.
My wife left me nine years ago. She took off with a colleague we used to have over some times for dinner. When she said that "Ed" needed a girlfriend I didn't think she met herself. Anyway, I have relied on escorts for human companionship and intimacy. Otherwise I'd have gone stock raving mad. Now, according to my government, I'm not only a criminal, but I'm also a pervert. So, loneliness and need for intimacy will soon, if this wretched bill passes, make me a criminal. My need for the company of a pretty woman that I don't have to play games with or promise the world to has made me a pervert.
So, if this bill passes and becomes law, I can't afford sex tourism and I will have no one. So, I've decided I'll run myself a nice warm bath, pour myself a glass of my favourite wine, and take almost a year's worth of prescription sleeping pills.
I must admit I've been trying to keep myself together, but I've been crying off and on now for several days, alone, not in public, not at work, and I can't face the prospect of having to break the law so I won't be alone.
I hate this bill, I hate this government, I hate Peter McKay, Stephen Harper and their sanctimonious hypocracy. I hope they burn in Hell.

Hello fellow terbites. Yes I'm still here. Thanks for so many of you showing concern. Considering we're all a bunch of "pathetic" (this from Heather Mallick in the Star) perverts and would be criminals, we seem to be a pretty decent bunch.

I haven't offed myself yet and C36 isn't law yet. So, I'm still here. I returned to work on Wednesday after barely getting out of bed since last Thursday. I'm tired of feeling so helpless about this. I know that this so called government of bullies and thugs led by a control freak isn't going to listen to anything I have to say. But, I did make a donation to Maggie's to fight this. I'll do what I can.

So have we reached the point where it will be criminal to be a normal heterosexual male? What's next, a law that sex will be illegal unless it's within marriage and strictly for procreation? I'd better not give them any ideas. "Arrest that man, he has a hardon." I guess being a single male in my late fifties really makes me an outcaste.

So, I still have my ziplocks full of sleeping pills just in case. But for now, I've put them in the cupboard with a sign saying "Break in case of C36."

Oh, and one more thing, did any of you notice part of the bill was already struck down today before it ever got to the Supreme Court? The SC ruled that Canadians have a right to Internet privacy! With a right wing authoritarian government out of control, a rubber stamp parliament and a toothless discredited Senate, I sometimes feel that the SC is our last bastion of democracy.

Thanks again everyone for your concern. I might not post for a while. But I'll still be here.

 

[stevieray]

Hello fellow terbites. Yes I'm still here. Thanks for so many of you showing concern. Considering we're all a bunch of "pathetic" (this from Heather Mallick in the Star) perverts and would be criminals, we seem to be a pretty decent bunch.

I haven't offed myself yet and C36 isn't law yet. So, I'm still here. I returned to work on Wednesday after barely getting out of bed since last Thursday. I'm tired of feeling so helpless about this. I know that this so called government of bullies and thugs led by a control freak isn't going to listen to anything I have to say. But, I did make a donation to Maggie's to fight this. I'll do what I can.

So have we reached the point where it will be criminal to be a normal heterosexual male? What's next, a law that sex will be illegal unless it's within marriage and strictly for procreation? I'd better not give them any ideas. "Arrest that man, he has a hardon." I guess being a single male in my late fifties really makes me an outcaste.

So, I still have my ziplocks full of sleeping pills just in case. But for now, I've put them in the cupboard with a sign saying "Break in case of C36."

Oh, and one more thing, did any of you notice part of the bill was already struck down today before it ever got to the Supreme Court? The SC ruled that Canadians have a right to Internet privacy! With a right wing authoritarian government out of control, a rubber stamp parliament and a toothless discredited Senate, I sometimes feel that the SC is our last bastion of democracy.

Thanks again everyone for your concern. I might not post for a while. But I'll still be here.

Glad to hear you`re ok. I know, I too have been waking up these last few days hoping this was just some sick dream! I`ve been hobbying for over 20 some years, and have ALWAYS treated the girls I`ve met with the upmost respect, (not to say they`ve always treated ME with respect, but that`s another story lol), and for these assholes to accuse me, (us), of being a `pervert`.... Yeah, well fuck you Harper/McKay! Don`t give up brother, you`re not alone. We`re all really pissed off. We can`t let these bastards win!!

 

[lovelatinas]

Fallsguy glad your still with us. Just be sure that your not the only one. We are here to support you brother.

 

[fuji]

Glad that you are OK!

Look, please call 416 408 4357 and chat, they can help you find ways to get a lot of the issues in your life addressed and it will do you a world of good to have someone you can talk to in confidence. Calling now while this is just in the back of your mind is the right time. There is a better future.

You owe it to yourself to at least give it a try, right?

 

[Fallsguy]

It proves that johns are from all backgrounds and walks of life.

The shaming of johns is absolutely deplorable and despicable.

They should focus on true exploitation and human trafficking, not going after honest johns who are decent folk.

They should also go after real criminals instead of wasting taxpayers' money.

The public prosecutor is probably up for re-election this fall and wants to show how "tough on crime" she is. This kind of stuff plays well in the States.

 

[Fallsguy]

Glad that you are OK!

Look, please call 416 408 4357 and chat, they can help you find ways to get a lot of the issues in your life addressed and it will do you a world of good to have someone you can talk to in confidence. Calling now while this is just in the back of your mind is the right time. There is a better future.

You owe it to yourself to at least give it a try, right?

Thanks Fuji, I will keep this number for future reference.
But for now, I think I'm ok. These clowns aren't worth it. But they are worth me doing whatever I can to defeat them in the next election.
Hey, by the way, if this is passed, and any sex workers die because of it, Harper and MacKay should be charged with murder and thrown in one their nice new prisons.

 

[GPIDEAL]

The public prosecutor is probably up for re-election this fall and wants to show how "tough on crime" she is. This kind of stuff plays well in the States.

Public prosecutors don't get elected here in Canada.

In any event, flush those sleeping pills down the toilet.

You won't need them even if Bill C36 passes.

Ever hire a woman to clean your home?

Discreet regular gals and proper screening will ensure you can still hobby.

It won't go away.

It's one thing having a law, but another for the feds to enforce it en mass.

They know this. The bill is posturing. You must remember that they were asked by our SCC to re-write the laws, so they wrote them to not offend mainstream society AND their die hard supporters (the latter probably more so than the former reason).

What negates safety for SPs is that anyone benefiting from the sale of sexual services other than a legitimate S.O. will be prosecuted, so this includes screeners and body guards. Totally against the spirit of the previous SCC ruling.

I give you permission to say this when you are doing your fave gal hard "fuck you Harper". It will get all that negative energy out of you.

Peace bro.

 

[HappynSmiling]

Don't be so hard on yourself. You say you can't face the prospect of breaking the law and that sounds very strange to me especially after what you've written. If you know that the law is written by a bunch of morons, religious fanatics and 40+ years old virgin feminists who will never know what it feels like to make a man happy and satisfied, who will spend the rest of their sad feminist days picking their own pussies why worry about breaking it?
I can't wait to be the first to break it if it passes of course!
Besides, there are escorts in all of those european countries with those super tough laws and they advertise publicly (on the internet)!

 

[bubble pop]

Ever hire a woman to clean your home?

You fuck the cleaning lady? Do tell.

 

[trtinajax]

So have we reached the point where it will be criminal to be a normal heterosexual male? What's next, a law that sex will be illegal unless it's within marriage and strictly for procreation? I'd better not give them any ideas. "Arrest that man, he has a hardon." I guess being a single male in my late fifties really makes me an outcaste.

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They can't do that. Charter of Rights and Freedoms says NO DISCRIMINATION for any reason & that includes marital status. Going to be a problem with Bill C-36. I absolutely hate the guy next door. A real prick. Wife doesn't work. I would guess that makes any outfit that she has on a probable gift from hubby (or at least purchased with hubby's money)
. I also don't believe that these two people never have sex. So once Bill C-36 becomes law I'm going to have to do my duty as a good citizen and report the illegal activities to the LE. We may new to hire thousands of new, cops, judges and crown attorneys if everyone pitches in and reports known cases of purchasing sexual services. I think the correct term for my plans is wilful compliance.

 

[stevieray]

Thanks Fuji, I will keep this number for future reference.
But for now, I think I'm ok. These clowns aren't worth it. But they are worth me doing whatever I can to defeat them in the next election.
Hey, by the way, if this is passed, and any sex workers die because of it, Harper and MacKay should be charged with murder and thrown in one their nice new prisons.

I would sooo love to see Harpo or McKay be a guest in one of Kingston`s `Federal hotels` lol You know what they say, "Surprise morning sex is the best...unless you`re in prison!! lol

 

[GPIDEAL]

They can't do that. Charter of Rights and Freedoms says NO DISCRIMINATION for any reason & that includes marital status. Going to be a problem with Bill C-36. I absolutely hate the guy next door. A real prick. Wife doesn't work. I would guess that makes any outfit that she has on a probable gift from hubby (or at least purchased with hubby's money)
. I also don't believe that these two people never have sex. So once Bill C-36 becomes law I'm going to have to do my duty as a good citizen and report the illegal activities to the LE. We may new to hire thousands of new, cops, judges and crown attorneys if everyone pitches in and reports known cases of purchasing sexual services. I think the correct term for my plans is wilful compliance.

The law exempts people living together in true relationships.

 

[Mikehorn]

The only thing that would suck more than killing yourself and finding out there is either no afterlife or a really bad afterlife because you killed yourself is killing youself over something that was reversed by the supreme court in a timely fashing and having enough of an afterlife to know that you acted a bit rashly.



Although for various legit reasons Johns will never rise up and there are not enough escorts to really make a difference.

This would be a good way to engage in civil disobendence. Anyone you see someone on a date which isn't "dutch" or a married couple where one person doesn't work keep calling the cops till action is made. Pass the word around the network and have them call the cops. I'd bet if it were done enough to mess with the 911 system and their ability to react to actual crime they would have to public back down and say don't call us we can't deal with it anymore. They back down over much worse things.

911 is not just for the cops, but fire and ambulance as well. So you'd be willing to endanger people's lives because you can't get your dick wet? Here's a suggestion, book an SP while it's still legal before your blue balls give you any more brilliant ideas.

 

[Insidious Von]

Fallsguy:

Why give MacKay and Harper the satisfaction by offing yourself, that's stupid. They couldn't care less and you are better than them.

One is a failed gold digger and the other keeps a Vladimir Putin blow up doll - real paragons of virtue they are.

 

[omegaphallic]

Its sad that no one gives a shit about clients to them were all just monsters and exploiters. Fuck them all.

Don't commit suicide this bill will die at some point, either they'll put it off too long, it will fail at the Supreme Court, or the Tories will lose and another party will repeal the law or refer to the Supreme Court where it will die.

And maybe for now you could take up pick up, Shyness can be overcome. Personally I think ACT Acceptance and Commitment theory is a good way to go for getting over shyness.