Fucked up please help!

[sweetdaddyc]

WTF are you upset about

I have just read about you being upset
I then went off and looked at your threads

Example :
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Lizz
I just got back from a wonderful session with Lizz @ Moulin Rouge..I hate to write how I felt when I was with Lizz cause I probably won't get into see her again...she is truly angelic.

I can hardly wait to see her again. Unfortunately Brampton is so far away from Whitby but definately worth the drive. I will be seeing her again.

Mmmmmuahh to you Lizz.

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If this is a true thread freom you
it appears in my humble opinion
you are having your cake and possibly eating it too
So why not let the LADY have a little simple flirt
My Gawd I am in shock

My venting is over
to eache there own
cheers
Sweetdaddyc

 

[neo anderson]

Thanks for all your help, honest and anger vented...You may be right when it all comes down to it. It's all about our insecurities, mine and hers and we are playing on them consiously or sub-consiously.

I think that it is time that I did grow up and get out of this hobby and start living life like I used to. This is a very dangerous time/hobby...with all of our tools to live double lives....I just spoke with a women yesterday about her S/O having an affair on her...internet, cell phones, hotmail. It really can be easy but what about our spirits....aura's is there really something else behind all this.

Someone on this board once said that "She must know on some level. Coincidences are a scary thing. Who really knows, anything may be possible...Is that fucked up or not....I have some thinking to do in the next little while to try and decide on what kind of life that I want....I am afraid of delving into this hobby any more than I already have, but I still would like more, I would still like to be in a room with more than one party...maybe this is something that we could do together.

Who knows? Who really knows what the truths are.

Regards all
Neo.

 

[Big Daddy]

It is the guys that she flirted with that are fucked up

Neo,

She may be right. I think everyone is allowed to flirt a little. At least she did not cheat on you. If she does then you can move on. However, think about that guys she flirted with. They still think that they have a chance with her, but they could not do anything. If you ask me, I would say that these guys are fucked up now.

 

[bigmoe69er]

Neo Anderson

"I think that it is time that I did grow up and get out of this hobby....."


Life is full of contradictions and double standards. You must know why you are doing it, be comfortable with your reasons, and never be into denial or self-deceit. Otherwise........you will be best served by gettting out of it. ---Dr. Moe

 

[Maddog]

Neo - hobbying and cheating are two different things, IMO. Kiarra, you may disagree, but then you might lose a lot of business as well LOL. I'm not going to say that hobbying is okay, but it does not make you a hypocrite to worry about what your s/o is doing with other guys - actual guys that she would have chance with! At least us hobbyists know that at the end of the night (or in the morning) we are going home alone or to our s/o. With this girl, you don't know what will happen. Time to shit or get of the pot. It sounds to me like she's pulling a Tarah, oops, I mean Mindfuck (MF). Run my friend...run like the wind.

 

[neo anderson]

She has again said that she didn't intend on saying or doing anything intentional and that she didn't know that her arm was there.

If I do choose to exit this hobby it will be very difficult to try and conduct business in those pockets where the action is. It's like a sub-culture that I have to pretend doesn't exist.

You see, I am infatuated with this women....she's blond, freckles amazing breasts - like the infamous Cameron's - from what I have seen from the pictures, shes about 5'7" and 125 lbs, she has the most amazing ice blue eyes and she can ejaculate....it's very difficult to just say fuck it and move on to greener pastures when she is everything that I've wanted in a woman and based on a lot of posts alot of what everyone wants in a woman, however if feel so threatened when she flirts.

Granted that I myself have been blessed with good looks, am well endowed and I like to satisfy my women, and I guess there is that part of me that needs to know that I can, therefore the SP's the strippers etc. I like the feed back that they give me too! I guess it feeds my insecurities, so why am I any better than her?

I do think that it is different for us men in a bar situation because for us to flirt means that we have to initiate the first move then we are the shmucks, women on the other hand can just respond and come out smelling like roses.

It's a big big world out there my friends....hmmm what to do, who to trust, which turn to make.

 

[V12]

neo - it sounds like you have a great gal. You probably don't trust her partly because she shouldn't trust you - but apparently does. If she is playing games get out immediately. If she isn't you will eventually undermine whatever you have and lose her.

It appears to me that the problem may be you, but either way the choice to do something about it is yours to make. Good luck.

V12

 

[neo anderson]

Well I appreciate all of the advice and have been giving her space. I sat with her on Saturday night and just listened with a calm demeaner...something that us guys have to practice and constantly be remined of. Seemed to work for a while. She was closer but then we had sex and I wanted to express my love for her through that medium and she was so distant it bothered me.

We are going to see a counselor on Wednesday and I am seeking my own to try and work through this...I appreciate all the feedback but still remain a little confuse over what to do?

Still fucked up!

 

[widowmaker]

Good bye

There are too many women out there to waste your time on someone who makes you feel bad. Iam not saying she is bad, but if you cannot handle this and this is part of who she is, then do not try to change her....let her go and you move on. Sorry if that sounds harsh but I have been there with my ex fiance and finally told her enough! Since.. my life and personal relations are much better AND my ex and I remain friends(plutonic).

Kiarra, we men are not like women, it is possible for us to sleep with other women and have no emotion at all involved. Cheating ....maybe but it does not mean that we don't love our SO'S. It means we are animals that need to sleep with many women even if we only care for one. Yes we are dogs(but cute dogs).

 

[i_am_good]

love hurts...

Hey neo,

So, what's your next move? Are you two still together?

I don't blame you for getting pissed. My ears turned red when I read the part about "I like it hard!". What's up with that?

Anyway, how about an update?

 

[neo anderson]

I would like to thank everybody so much for all of your support. When I thought that this was the love of my life...I've known her and her family since pre-high school...I had a crush on her through-out my life and then to have been with her for the first while was heaven....

So as you can see it is a very difficult time for old Neo at this moment but I will just remain away for some time until I sort things out....It's fucked up when you lose trust in someone that you love...and maybe it's me that I don't trust....some posts suggest so and some don't

I guess I should go to a monestary somewhere and sort this out

Tough choices

 

[neo anderson]

Sorry I_am...she told me that when she said "I like it hard" she says that its true and that she likes massages hard...and I do know that is true too! But to say something like that in front of someone whom you just met seems like it is crossing a boundry?

What do you think?

Neo