I'm in my mid 40's and I've only started this "hobby" a couple of weeks ago. But first, let me tell you a little something about myself. I still think about sex as much as I did in high school. It's always on my mind (que A.D.I.D.A.S song by Korn). I wouldn't say I'm out of shape, but I do have a little gut. I live a healthy lifestyle: I ride my bike a lot, especially to work, even in the cold winter sometimes. Being from California where I use to surf a lot, I do a lot of cardio here...jogging and cycling of course. I still wake up to a hard-on like no other. I enjoy sex a lot when I can get it-which is, not a lot. But I do frequently masterbate, especially with my go to fleshlight.
I feel like I'm kind of done with the dating scene for now. It's just too much work, with very little reward, so I decided to finally try Toronto's sex scene which I've heard a lot about before coming here. I started off visiting the MP. I've been to Allure and S9 and they have left me a very satisfied customer. This week I decided to skip the foreplay and went straight to booking an escort. I'm not going to do a review because of what had happened during the hour, but I can tell you that the SP was very sexy and hot as hell. She has been recently recommended on the incall threads and I was anxiously waiting all week to for my time with her.
So i get to her place and everything goes smoothly as possible. After my shower, we get straight to the action. We're doing all the positions: 69, cowgirl, reverse cowgirl, bbbj, daty, dfk, and my favorite position, the doggy style. Then something terrible on the magnitude of the worst catastrophic event happen, I realized my cock was going limp. I couldn't keep it hard. We went back to bbbj (which felt so good), and my nightmare became real-I couldn't cum. I just knew it in my gut, I wouldn't be able to perform, my gun was jammed, couldn't even fire dummy rounds. SP was trying to relax me. And I assured her that it wasn't her, that it was me. She provided me with an amazing experience and I made sure that she knew that. I left really disappointed in myself. All week, I thought I could probably cum twice, first half from bbbj and end the second half with the doggy style, but no, ended with the walk of shame.
I don't know why I couldn't cum. I did fine with the MP, but with the SP, it was a no go. Then I thought, maybe because I was actually paying for the sex this time ( I don't consider MP paying for sex), my mind was fucking with me because I chose to skip the chase. You know, when you finally land that moment with a girl and she's going down on you, the chase is complete and the orgasmic reward is part of this primal hunt. The body is ready to discharge because the hunt was successful. Maybe because I skip the hunt, my brain psychologically deterred me from receiving the rewards-it's almost as if I cheated and my mind doesn't like it. Now, I don't consider going to an MP as buying sex because legally they' aren't allowed to do it, so when you find one to get you off, it's still technically part of the hunt and I guess my brain is fine with that.
I know, this all sounds like new age horseshit but I think my mind is fucking with me. I'm going to book another escort in a couple of days and have a nofap policy until I'm with SP to see if junior can still perform. I just hope this was just an anomaly and a one time thing or this is going to be a quick hobby.
I feel like I'm kind of done with the dating scene for now. It's just too much work, with very little reward, so I decided to finally try Toronto's sex scene which I've heard a lot about before coming here. I started off visiting the MP. I've been to Allure and S9 and they have left me a very satisfied customer. This week I decided to skip the foreplay and went straight to booking an escort. I'm not going to do a review because of what had happened during the hour, but I can tell you that the SP was very sexy and hot as hell. She has been recently recommended on the incall threads and I was anxiously waiting all week to for my time with her.
So i get to her place and everything goes smoothly as possible. After my shower, we get straight to the action. We're doing all the positions: 69, cowgirl, reverse cowgirl, bbbj, daty, dfk, and my favorite position, the doggy style. Then something terrible on the magnitude of the worst catastrophic event happen, I realized my cock was going limp. I couldn't keep it hard. We went back to bbbj (which felt so good), and my nightmare became real-I couldn't cum. I just knew it in my gut, I wouldn't be able to perform, my gun was jammed, couldn't even fire dummy rounds. SP was trying to relax me. And I assured her that it wasn't her, that it was me. She provided me with an amazing experience and I made sure that she knew that. I left really disappointed in myself. All week, I thought I could probably cum twice, first half from bbbj and end the second half with the doggy style, but no, ended with the walk of shame.
I don't know why I couldn't cum. I did fine with the MP, but with the SP, it was a no go. Then I thought, maybe because I was actually paying for the sex this time ( I don't consider MP paying for sex), my mind was fucking with me because I chose to skip the chase. You know, when you finally land that moment with a girl and she's going down on you, the chase is complete and the orgasmic reward is part of this primal hunt. The body is ready to discharge because the hunt was successful. Maybe because I skip the hunt, my brain psychologically deterred me from receiving the rewards-it's almost as if I cheated and my mind doesn't like it. Now, I don't consider going to an MP as buying sex because legally they' aren't allowed to do it, so when you find one to get you off, it's still technically part of the hunt and I guess my brain is fine with that.
I know, this all sounds like new age horseshit but I think my mind is fucking with me. I'm going to book another escort in a couple of days and have a nofap policy until I'm with SP to see if junior can still perform. I just hope this was just an anomaly and a one time thing or this is going to be a quick hobby.
