Ok , I'm not exactly sure why I'm writing this . It is relevent to the "hobby" . Maybe it's just an "Oprah " moment and if I lie down for awhile it will pass . I have developed a comfort level with
3 or 4 women who provide what someone once called the "Full Escort Experience " . I am friendly with these women the same way you would be with your doctor , lawyer , plumber ....whatever . I don't e-mail them or phone them between appointments but we have become comfortable enough with each other to be able to discuss most things between episodes of me ( and sometimes them ) being reduced to a blubbering mass .
This is about two examples of "no-shows " . The names will remain a secret because that is not the point of this . These both happened last winter .
The Good
I arrived back in my hotel on one of those miserable winter nights last winter . I was in a nice room which had one of those electic fireplaces that look nice ....until you turn them on . Then they just look a bit silly . Nice room .
Message light is flashing . This will not be good news I bet . It isn't . Miss "X" has phoned to say she has to cancel . Great , there is absolutely no way I can arrange anything with any of my other favourites at this late date . The hours pass slowly and I'm more annoyed just before I go to bed than I was when I received the message .
Fast forward about 6 weeks . I have an appointment with Miss "X" again . Hey, she is worth forgiving ...lol. She is 10 minutes late and I can't help but wonder whether I've been had yet again .
She arrives and our time is as good as always , perhaps better . More tenderness mixed in with the gymnastics . While we are basking the subject of the cancellation comes up . A sad expression takes over her face ...sort of like a wave washing away her usually happy mood .
She tells me .
For the last 9 months she has done some volunteer work in a palliative care unit . She reads to the patients , helps with their grooming . Does their nails I guess . Talks to them . Most are cancer victims .
On the previous night , 6 weeks ago , she had received a call at 5 pm saying that Mrs. Y was not expected to last the night but that she was still coherant as she had refused the extra morphine . She had spent a lot of time with Y and went over to stay with her , hold her hand . I guess she had no family there , I don't know
Hell even I have misty eyes now . I commend her for being so compassionate . She just looked at me and said " Compassion ....what is that ? It's not the same as pity or guit is it ? Or trying to pay off some debt to fortune or to God . I guess it's feeling someone else's pain and the only way to make it go away is to try to make their pain go away . In the end you do what you can , maybe what you have to do ,to make things better . While it's hard to believe in a god sometimes , somehow you still do ........
3 or 4 women who provide what someone once called the "Full Escort Experience " . I am friendly with these women the same way you would be with your doctor , lawyer , plumber ....whatever . I don't e-mail them or phone them between appointments but we have become comfortable enough with each other to be able to discuss most things between episodes of me ( and sometimes them ) being reduced to a blubbering mass .
This is about two examples of "no-shows " . The names will remain a secret because that is not the point of this . These both happened last winter .
The Good
I arrived back in my hotel on one of those miserable winter nights last winter . I was in a nice room which had one of those electic fireplaces that look nice ....until you turn them on . Then they just look a bit silly . Nice room .
Message light is flashing . This will not be good news I bet . It isn't . Miss "X" has phoned to say she has to cancel . Great , there is absolutely no way I can arrange anything with any of my other favourites at this late date . The hours pass slowly and I'm more annoyed just before I go to bed than I was when I received the message .
Fast forward about 6 weeks . I have an appointment with Miss "X" again . Hey, she is worth forgiving ...lol. She is 10 minutes late and I can't help but wonder whether I've been had yet again .
She arrives and our time is as good as always , perhaps better . More tenderness mixed in with the gymnastics . While we are basking the subject of the cancellation comes up . A sad expression takes over her face ...sort of like a wave washing away her usually happy mood .
She tells me .
For the last 9 months she has done some volunteer work in a palliative care unit . She reads to the patients , helps with their grooming . Does their nails I guess . Talks to them . Most are cancer victims .
On the previous night , 6 weeks ago , she had received a call at 5 pm saying that Mrs. Y was not expected to last the night but that she was still coherant as she had refused the extra morphine . She had spent a lot of time with Y and went over to stay with her , hold her hand . I guess she had no family there , I don't know
Hell even I have misty eyes now . I commend her for being so compassionate . She just looked at me and said " Compassion ....what is that ? It's not the same as pity or guit is it ? Or trying to pay off some debt to fortune or to God . I guess it's feeling someone else's pain and the only way to make it go away is to try to make their pain go away . In the end you do what you can , maybe what you have to do ,to make things better . While it's hard to believe in a god sometimes , somehow you still do ........