No matter how many "real" relationships I find myself in, i keep getting drawn back into the "hobby". I mean, I meet these great women, outside the hobby. they've all been great. but for whatever reason, i guess I get bored. I get the wanterlust. And find myself meeting 2 or 3 pro's a week just to feed my habit. No, selfish me I've never posted a review of a single lady, sorry. my problem, I usualy forget there name before i finish bangin' them.
bad me.
I've probably seen close to two hundred escorts,street walkers some more than once but that's rare. that energy of the first encounter, completely annonymous sex. i guess that's what draws me. If you'de ask me there names, may be able to remember 5 or 6, maybe. this is going to sound bad but, these girls names, there lives, nothing about them is important to me. just the sex. dont missunderstand, in the moment, It's not about me getting off, I have this - personality flaw - it manifests as a desire, no need, to please who I am with, sexually. that is the "it" for me. weird.
maybe that's why I tend to hit alot of the asian places lately. the constant "stream" of new fresh talent. language barrier adds to my "need" for annonymity. cutting the chit chat doesnt cloud my head with bs about this person allowing my clean fantasy to continue. Seriously, how many times has one of these lady's started yappin about her life her "situation" her "troubles", after first ten seconds of this I can tell shes usualy tryin to size me up for the 'tap' . "and i dont know what im gonna do, my rent is due tomorow and im still short" ya i come off as a mark, trust me the meek and mild demeanor get's you much much more
but you do get hit upon constantly. if they're delivery is realy good i give. usualy not.
I think maybe writing about it (my situation) helps "me" more than anybody else.
bad me.
I've probably seen close to two hundred escorts,street walkers some more than once but that's rare. that energy of the first encounter, completely annonymous sex. i guess that's what draws me. If you'de ask me there names, may be able to remember 5 or 6, maybe. this is going to sound bad but, these girls names, there lives, nothing about them is important to me. just the sex. dont missunderstand, in the moment, It's not about me getting off, I have this - personality flaw - it manifests as a desire, no need, to please who I am with, sexually. that is the "it" for me. weird.
maybe that's why I tend to hit alot of the asian places lately. the constant "stream" of new fresh talent. language barrier adds to my "need" for annonymity. cutting the chit chat doesnt cloud my head with bs about this person allowing my clean fantasy to continue. Seriously, how many times has one of these lady's started yappin about her life her "situation" her "troubles", after first ten seconds of this I can tell shes usualy tryin to size me up for the 'tap' . "and i dont know what im gonna do, my rent is due tomorow and im still short" ya i come off as a mark, trust me the meek and mild demeanor get's you much much more
but you do get hit upon constantly. if they're delivery is realy good i give. usualy not. I think maybe writing about it (my situation) helps "me" more than anybody else.
