This is one of those unpleasant things that never seems to be too far from our awareness. Every few weeks some ring of child pedophiles is busted, or a high profile offender gets a ridiculously light sentence, or some DDG female gets a disproportionate amount of media attention for her dalliances with her male students. Reactions are unvarying: frothing and foaming at the mouth, clucking of tongues, shaking of fingers, decrying the amorality of monsters, etc., etc. After a few days every offended person goes back to doing what he does best - ignoring the obvious and looking the other way.
What we never really hear much about is how the abused party is affected by the abuse. Media accounts might make reference to "destroyed lives" or some lurid details of the offense, but there's nothing of value that can be taken away from these accounts. The take away, really, is that all abused individuals are write offs, damaged people that ought to be swept to the side as they age and lose their childhood cuteness. I find that appalling. I believe there's a lot of untapped wisdom out there that the clamor for details and the phony outrage silences. I'd like to hear some of that wisdom.
I guess I'd like to hear about your experiences with abuse. I don't mean graphic details; that sort of thing doesn't help anybody and only provides fodder for the pervs out there. I want to know what challenges or obstacles your history of abuse has presented you. I want to know how you've dealt with those challenges. Have you overcome them or are you still struggling? Have you been able to develop some sort of evolving self concept, or does it crumble with each crisis in your life? Can you form relationships? Are you "there"? When you catch a glimpse of yourself in a mirror or window do you know you are looking at you?
Maybe I won't get any responses at all. Shame can silence the most voluble people. But I think this is a good place for such a discussion. We're all anonymous here, after all.
I should note I'm looking particularly for male input. Not because women have nothing to say on the subject, of course. Women have plenty to say, and an easier time saying it than men. Men never talk about this shit. Men hold things inside, make themselves miserable, and make life miserable for everyone around them. So even though women out there can chime in, I'd really like to hear from the guys.
Disclosure: I have experienced abuse as a child. Somewhat regularly from 5-10; less regularly from 10-12; rarely, but perhaps in a more psychological way, until 16 or so. And I'm open to discussing any serious questions if you have them.
What we never really hear much about is how the abused party is affected by the abuse. Media accounts might make reference to "destroyed lives" or some lurid details of the offense, but there's nothing of value that can be taken away from these accounts. The take away, really, is that all abused individuals are write offs, damaged people that ought to be swept to the side as they age and lose their childhood cuteness. I find that appalling. I believe there's a lot of untapped wisdom out there that the clamor for details and the phony outrage silences. I'd like to hear some of that wisdom.
I guess I'd like to hear about your experiences with abuse. I don't mean graphic details; that sort of thing doesn't help anybody and only provides fodder for the pervs out there. I want to know what challenges or obstacles your history of abuse has presented you. I want to know how you've dealt with those challenges. Have you overcome them or are you still struggling? Have you been able to develop some sort of evolving self concept, or does it crumble with each crisis in your life? Can you form relationships? Are you "there"? When you catch a glimpse of yourself in a mirror or window do you know you are looking at you?
Maybe I won't get any responses at all. Shame can silence the most voluble people. But I think this is a good place for such a discussion. We're all anonymous here, after all.
I should note I'm looking particularly for male input. Not because women have nothing to say on the subject, of course. Women have plenty to say, and an easier time saying it than men. Men never talk about this shit. Men hold things inside, make themselves miserable, and make life miserable for everyone around them. So even though women out there can chime in, I'd really like to hear from the guys.
Disclosure: I have experienced abuse as a child. Somewhat regularly from 5-10; less regularly from 10-12; rarely, but perhaps in a more psychological way, until 16 or so. And I'm open to discussing any serious questions if you have them.