i mean the following as an observation from a 76 year old who has seen it all..and not meant to be rude...but for fuck sakes grow a pair and suck it up and find ways to meet women....and make no mistake, nothing is free in life, and you have to pay $ for everything, well except peace and quiet...whether its taxes, hobbies, material things, and socializing with women....get off the couch and make yourself available.....
You said it much better than I could. I can tell you as a 54 year old who spent a lifetime feeling like I was undesirable to the ladies, even though I had a few dates and was married for 19 years, these last 8 months since seeing my first SP in December have been a true awakening.
I realized I wasn't putting in the work to be desirable. I was just ignoring my health (I was obese) and personality issues and hoping someone would find me attractive.
Seeing an SP made me do a 180 and realize with the years I have left I want to feel desirable and alive
I've been working out and eating better, lost 60lbs, started working on being more confident and charismatic, something that comes easier with losing weight and gaining confidence.
I am also on dating apps (4 of them actually) and am seeing the attractiveness of the women that interact with me and like me out of the blue getting higher as I work on myself and update my bio and photos
I am at the point where I could have a date every weekend and am being picky to wait until I find one with good compatibility who is also very attractive to me.
This week I have a first date with a really nice looking Hispanic woman 8 years my junior who seems really warm and interested in getting to know me.
If all goes well this will be my exit from the hobby possibly forever.
OP, put in the work, look at yourself and what is holding you back and get on with it.