oh shit
thought it was just me
for me it's been an amassing weight of disappointing encounters. I've been slowly losing hope of finding/having a grand ol time like I used to.
I've had glorious times, wonderful sessions. Providers putting in effort and charm. The occasional sex Goddess deigning to bless me with a life affirming mind blowing time.
Unfortunately, the slow decline began with the cutbacks on accessible advertising
the fall of craigslist and backpages
the Now magazine personal ads
we limped along still strong
I caught the occasional whirlwind and lightning in a bottle.
then the death knell, the pandemic spilled a slurry of ripoffs and scammers into the mainstream
now the thieves outnumber the genuine providers.
I've been scammed more times in the last 6 years than EVER before in my hobbying life. and I've slowly lost interest in taking chances. The ladies left are fine, but the thrill has very much diminished. as the few left in my roster come to the habitual end of an SPs allure.
either retirement or loss of interest in being an SP, (when an SP puts less and less effort into their sessions and eventually you calculate that your time and money are worth more than the return you're getting).
I find myself looking at ads and agency pages, and deferring my bookings because I would rather visit friends or family, or even go do something else entirely.
in the last week I've looked at the same few ladies on LL and almost booked. and tracking the availability of several minx, SFT, HPL, secrets ladies but not quite getting to the point of making the call.
almost as if it's no longer desire or even libido driving me, but habit and mental momentum.
my own retirement from this hobby seems to be here not with a loud proclamation.
but rather with a silent withdrawal.
a small shrinking part of me still thinks maybe I'll make a date any day now. maybe on my next day off in a couple of weeks.
but my loins aren't in it anymore, I don't feel the pull of tits, ass and a good bbbjcim like I used to.
it's been marred and overgrown with the disappointment of bored unsensual girls, lackluster sessions, and scamming thieves.
I thank all the ladies in my sig who made this hobby one of the great times I've had.
I hope they're all rich happy and healthy wherever they are.
and I thank all of you guys who helped me over the years with advice and reviews.
wish you all great times, mind blowing orgasms and lovely Ladies
