Kaspersky all the way!
I used every AV program that's out there and believe me, most of them are shit.
I love Kaspersky because it does its job properly without asking you what to do every 2 minutes.
They also have the best Firewall out there, imho.
I used to date this girl who was a vegan and she weighed like 40 kilos or so, at 1.75
It was a mess, she had absolutely no muscle whatsoever, just skin and bones. Felt very weird fondling those breasts.
I really hope you are alright and you didn't do anything drastic. No matter how shitty life might seem at one point, you gotta keep on moving.
Going through hell? Keep on going.