Do you think you could ever completely quit hobbying?
I find it extremely hard to do. Although i've been a member of this board for a long time i only started seeing escorts last december. I wouldnt say im a sex addict, maybe im in denial, but prior to me starting the hobby i was fine if i didnt have sex for an extended period of time. After i started seeing escorts out of curiosity i find myself having a hard time stopping. Every hotel i pass by or every condo i see being built i wonder what percent of occupancy is actually incalls. The hobby is always on my mind.
To be honest i would really like to find a nice girl to settle down with and have some kind of emotional connection with ( i know, i know lame right!) but the ease of this hobby to just pick up a phone and call a girl who will do whatever i want her to do to me is just too compelling for me to stop. I would never want to enter a commited relationship and still go out and see SPs... i find it disrespectful (no offence to anyone out there that does that... its just my opinion).
I tried to quit once when i started to become close friends with a SP that i used to see. Actually she would invite me to hangout as friends more times than i've seen her as a client. So close in fact that she invited me to meet her parents and siblings. At that point she said she considered me as a family friend and of the few that she has i was one of the best of them. She suggested i quit the sooner the better because she informed me that its hard to get out once i get going so i did. For awhile hanging out wid this girl and having fun was really more than enough for me. I can honestly say that i enjoyed the company even without the sex and it made me forget about hobbying.......... for awhile.
Spending so much time with this girl, understandably, i started to catch some feelings for her. My mistake, it wasnt my intention to do so and things probably wouldnt have change if i didnt tell her so. But i did and she started to feel uneasy about it and decided not to be friends anymore though i tried to back pedal to where we were before it just didnt work. I was pretty disappointed.... i dont think i really recovered from it.
Now i have gone back to seeing SP's i suppose to fill that void that was left behind and i dont see myself stopping, though part of me really wants to. But i feel it will always be on my mind cuz i know its everywhere. I definitely dont see myself going back to the life i lived before i started... my whole perspective has changed.
Is it really possible to completely quit?
I find it extremely hard to do. Although i've been a member of this board for a long time i only started seeing escorts last december. I wouldnt say im a sex addict, maybe im in denial, but prior to me starting the hobby i was fine if i didnt have sex for an extended period of time. After i started seeing escorts out of curiosity i find myself having a hard time stopping. Every hotel i pass by or every condo i see being built i wonder what percent of occupancy is actually incalls. The hobby is always on my mind.
To be honest i would really like to find a nice girl to settle down with and have some kind of emotional connection with ( i know, i know lame right!) but the ease of this hobby to just pick up a phone and call a girl who will do whatever i want her to do to me is just too compelling for me to stop. I would never want to enter a commited relationship and still go out and see SPs... i find it disrespectful (no offence to anyone out there that does that... its just my opinion).
I tried to quit once when i started to become close friends with a SP that i used to see. Actually she would invite me to hangout as friends more times than i've seen her as a client. So close in fact that she invited me to meet her parents and siblings. At that point she said she considered me as a family friend and of the few that she has i was one of the best of them. She suggested i quit the sooner the better because she informed me that its hard to get out once i get going so i did. For awhile hanging out wid this girl and having fun was really more than enough for me. I can honestly say that i enjoyed the company even without the sex and it made me forget about hobbying.......... for awhile.
Spending so much time with this girl, understandably, i started to catch some feelings for her. My mistake, it wasnt my intention to do so and things probably wouldnt have change if i didnt tell her so. But i did and she started to feel uneasy about it and decided not to be friends anymore though i tried to back pedal to where we were before it just didnt work. I was pretty disappointed.... i dont think i really recovered from it.
Now i have gone back to seeing SP's i suppose to fill that void that was left behind and i dont see myself stopping, though part of me really wants to. But i feel it will always be on my mind cuz i know its everywhere. I definitely dont see myself going back to the life i lived before i started... my whole perspective has changed.
Is it really possible to completely quit?
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