So, . . .you've started 2 threads (as far as I can tell) on this same basic subject today. You think you're in love with this escort and even think of her as wife material.
For those who want to check out the other thread, this link might work
https://terb.cc/vbulletin/showthread.php?692442-Should-I-confront-my-regular-Or-not-bother
A lot of us on here will tell you that this eventually leads you to having an ex-wife situation. Don't tell her you love her (like you want to in the other thread) - at least not yet.
Try asking her to go out with you on an unpaid date - like a "real world" dating situation.
Then, when that big bucket of ice cold water gets poured all over you (metaphorically speaking of course), some reality will instantly slap you hard right in the face (again metaphorically speaking) and you can go on living your life.
Then use that lesson the next time some other SP catches your eye and you elevate her to wife material before she's even agreed to spend time with you "for free".
Finally, to answer your question - yeah, it's just you.